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The Smell of Fall

By Drew Hendrickson

The smell of Fall, O! So sweet.


It brings a tear to my eye, the smell of Fall,

the birds will leave, the leaves will fall, all while we experience the smell of Fall, vanilla, cinnamon, chai, and hot apple pies are things we love during the smell of Fall, friends, family, and strangers alike grow together and bond during the smell of Fall. Many have loved, many have lived, many have grown during the smell of Fall, The smell of Fall, O! So sweet, brings love, joy, and peace alike, all while we experience the smell of Fall.



Fall of ‘95

By Tom Pinkston

I made roasted onion and garlic soup

and baked bread to go with it.

I courted you with that bread

and I knew

that you knew

what it was

I was trying to do

- get in your pants -

it was true.

But there were more ways to it than just that

I can name them, one by one,

like the candles you burned.


The diesel engine of the passenger train

as it idled in the valley of the buildings downtown where we lived

in our musty old, second floor apartment

the one above the used book store.

The tiny coffee shop half a block up the sidewalk where we both worked part time.

Scones from the bakery on the corner.


A cool night’s draft seeping in through the cracks in the putty,

we undress each other and lay together to get warm - no heat in that old barn of a building.

You open

I test a soft, warm breath across the petals of the orchid you keep

you quiver

and beckon.

____


Another year.

We say, “There goes another, just like the others.”

It’s become stale,

a mold.

It’s not what we want for each other anymore.

We wanted to share

forever

like your mother’s mother’s one remaining teacup

filled with clean water

and the last gardenia.



By Dylan Roggeman

Autumn is a time of falling leaves and aging trees.

Slower bees and the first freeze.

But what I enjoy most of all,

are the scents that warm me through the Fall.

Wet piles of leaves decomposing

The sharpness of the air quickly nosing

Cinnamon and apple intertwined in loving embrace

Pumpkin spice smacking my face.

The smells are intense, like the wood of the fence

Outdoor scents are what make sense

Every kid should have the opportunity

To spend Autumn outside, leaves and the slide

Frozen grass and haunted hayrides.

I think you'll find the smell is reaal niiice.



By Kiersten Graves

I watch as a leaf falls slowly from a tree, fluttering in the wind.

It looks so peaceful and content following every leaf that has gone before it,

dying to make way for the growth of new leaves that will start to arrive when spring

gets here.

As of now, though, the trees will look barren for a while.

It’s been getting colder, and the sun has been hiding for a while. It has rained

for three days straight, and I wouldn’t have been surprised if it had rained for three

more.

However it didn’t, and the sun is out of hiding.

It would be hard to tell it was raining at all, if the petrichor wasn’t ligering.

Today feels alive, despite the fact I’m in a graveyard, and anything remaining

here is dead or dying.

With a bouquet of Aster flowers in hand, I make my way over to a familiar

tombstone.

I place the flowers on the dirt, tracing the letters carved into the stone.

Cynthia.

How I miss her.

She passed away just last autumn.

I remember it very well.

The aching sound of her voice as she pleaded to stay alive. The prominence of

fear in her eyes.

The surprise when she tumbled back and knocked her perfume bottle off of

the table, shattering into glass shards and leaving the smell of chemicals and

sandalwood soaked into the floor for weeks on end.

The silence after her heart stopped beating.

At first I recall the regret of knowing, but now I’m almost certain I never did it,

and perhaps something else had happened that led to her death.

But if it wasn’t me, then who could it be?

I feel a chill run up my spine.

Who could it be?


I look around the graveyard.

The air always feels a bit colder here, for whatever reason. Maybe it is simply

the shaking of trees against the wind that makes it all seem colder.

I stood up, collecting the old and dried roses I had placed at Cynthia’s grave

just a few weeks before.

Who else would it have been? It was just me. I was the only one there. The only

one with a knife. And the only one to watch her bleed to her death.

The wind kicks up, whispering past me like someone quietly telling a secret.

A secret indeed.

I move back and start heading towards the exit of the grave yard.

I can’t help but wonder if Cynthia will ever forgive me.

Assuming it was ever truly me to begin with.

Perhaps I will never know myself.

The memory haunts me just as much as the regret.

So long as no one knows, perhaps I don’t need to know, either.





While we are away, here is a little something our editor, Dylan Roggeman, made to share his summer adventures to Yellowstone and Grand Teton National Parks. We hope you are having great adventures too and we look forward to returning to Portals activities soon. For now, enjoy these wonderful views and great travel tips. Happy Summer!


Q: Write a One Scene Horror Story


A: Who's There

By Rebecca Schwartz


“Hello?” Laura answered the phone. A puzzled look came upon her face. The faint lines

in her forehead began to wrinkle.

“Leave me alone!” she said firmly as she slammed the phone on the receiver. She flung

her hand to her heart.

I asked if everything was alright. Laura brushed it off.

“It was just an obscene caller, Nancy. I’ve gotten a few calls in the past couple of days.

It’s probably one of the neighborhood boys tricking me.” She tried to explain it away, but I could

tell it bothered her.

She circled the room a couple of times, rearranging photos on the mantle, organizing the

magazines on the coffee table, and fluffing pillows on the sofa.

“I’m going to make a drink. You want one?” she offered.

I accepted. Laura went into the kitchen. The phone rang again.

“Would you mind getting that Nancy?” she called.

“Hello?” I answered. I expected to hear James’ voice, I knew this was usually the time he came

home.

“Where’s Laura?” it wasn’t her husband’s voice at all. It was a low, gravelly voice.

“You leave her alone! Who are you anyway?” I asked.

“Nancy, I see you, but where’s Laura?” he asked again.

“Where are you?” I asked, breathlessly.


The phone clicked. I put it back down and rushed over to the window. I could see the phone box

just a few yards away, under the soft glow of a street lamp. I shuddered. The caller must have

been in there, watching us.

“Who was it?” Laura asked as she entered the room with our drinks.

My face said it all. She set the glasses down firmly.

“This is becoming annoying. Next time it happens, I’m telephoning the police,” she

stated.

I relayed to her what the caller had said this time. She shivered and went around the room,

closing the curtains.

“I’m staying with you until James comes home.” I insist.

Laura sighed, collapsing onto the sofa. “Nancy, it’s about time I told you something,” she

paused. Something wasn’t right, I could tell. She lifted her hand to her forehead. “James won’t

be coming home.” Something eerie was in her voice.

“What do you mean?” I asked, puzzled.

“James is gone, Nancy. They took him two weeks ago. They said it was the best thing for

him,” she wiped away a tear. “He can get proper treatment there.”

“Oh, Laura,” I tried consoling her. “What happened?”

She explained that James had been acting strangely for the past couple of months. He’d come

home drunk, which was entirely out of his character, James never drank in the past. He began

forgetting things as soon as they happened. He’d disappear for a few days at a time. Laura finally

called in a specialist.

As she finished telling me all of this, we suddenly heard someone outside the door. A key

went into the lock and it clicked.


Laura got up and peered down the hallway. “Who’s there?” she asked, nervously.

“Hello, darling.”

“James! What are you doing here?” Laura exclaimed, backing up into the living room.

“Don’t worry, dear. I’m all better,” he paused and looked at me. “Oh, Nancy’s still here. I

thought she would have been gone by now.”

In a matter of seconds, he lunged at Laura. As he did, he tripped over the lamp cord,

pulling it out of the wall. The room went black and I heard Laura scream. It was suddenly

muffled. My heart was racing, I could feel it in my throat. I stumbled around the room, trying to

find the way out. Just as I reached the doorway, I felt James’ grip on my ankle.


A: Soundside

By Tom Pinkston


The Plymouth scrapes as we drop off the lip of the county road down onto Esthelle’s


Way,


big sister at the wheel of the old family wagon.


From nary a cloud,


fat sundrops splatter the roof and the wipers mix a batter on the dirty windshield -


devil’s beatin’ his wife again,


and there’ll be squalls on the sound before the end of the day.


Middle sister has taken control of the dial,

little sister’s in the way back,


and all in between us are the friends we’ve picked up and packed in along the way -


not a soul among us wearing a seatbelt.


The scrub oaks glisten as we bounce along on the wagon’s rusty springs,

the windows are down and the music is pure 70’s rock -


we’re all going swimming,

over down at the soundside.

Esthelle’s Way is a one lane, sandy track,


so if you meet somebody else on it, one of y’all’s gonna have to back up.

And with a toot, a holler and wave, it always works out.


People come out here to the Soundside to bathe in the sun and have a good time in the


water.


Everybody’s in good spirits,

coming and going.

There’s a few other shacks out here.


and big sister’s best friend Amy is the last one on board.

She squeezes in next to me taking my window seat.


I am nine years old.


She’ll be gone off to college at the end of summer.

Her skin is warm on mine and beads with a honeysuckle sweat.

Right away, she catches me staring at her breasts.

She gives me the look as she slams the door.


I’m embarrassed and feel I should try to make it even worse by explaining to her that

once you gaze into that valley - brush up against that event horizon -

you’re helplessly sucked in and there’s no way out.

But I just blush and say not a word.


A moment passes and I can’t help but look at her again.


She’s smiling out the window,

long brown hair blowing in the breeze


and I have no idea what’s going through her head right now.

But I am secretly in love for the very first time.


Back home, mom has promised dad to make burgers on the grill for when we get back.

That’s if she can get him out of bed in time. Something for the whole family to look


forward to be disappointed about.

The wagon’s making a rattle,

it’s that right front quarter panel.

I’ll fix it again when we get home.


For now,


big sister wheels us into our spot and we all pile out.

This close to shore, even with the tide in,

the sound’s not that deep at all.


But you need to gauge its depth before you dive off the end of the dock -


most of the time we just jump in.

And with the tide out,


you can stand on its sandy bottom with your head and shoulders above the surface.


You look, but you can’t see the sound’s opposite shore,


but if you squint,


you can spot the mastheads of shrimp boats plying near it.


I take a deep breath and submerge.

This is my favorite thing.


I swim down near the bottom and hold myself there as still as I can be,


it’s gentle as a pale root beer down here.


And best of all,

I’m alone

and it’s quiet.


The sunlight above plays here in the shallows with me.


I am soothed.


There’s a wrasse lurking under the dock,

he’s waiting on a piece of boloney sandwich.


I go up for air.


But something is stretched across the soundwater’s surface.


It’s thin, but I can’t break through it.


The water won’t let go of me.

I stand and push


but it only feels like the sounds’ entire weight is pushing back


holding me down.

I can see out -


I see Amy and big sister sitting on the end of the dock kicking their legs

a buddy of mine runs up between them for to do a cannonball.


I watch him hit the water -

watch it slurp him under.

The sunlight dazzles,

fractures.

I begin to see images -

it’s my life -


and there is not one thing special about it at all.


In the next moment,


the urge to unclench my jaw will become an involuntary act

and I will take a deep breath of soundwater.

I don’t know what happened to anybody else that day.


My sisters,

my friends.

I just don’t know.

All I know is that I didn’t make it.

Did I ever exist?

Was that my life?

Where’d I go wrong?

And where am I now?


I’ve had plenty of time to think of questions.

That bright day at soundside,

I want it to stop.

It’s all I have left, but,

it always ends the same.

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